Old sorta friend

So a long time ago, in a cafe far far away.

Well. Not really. I had a friend who used to own a cool little cafe downtown, and there were a few of us who were deemed "regulars". In that few of us, there was a couple. They seemed sorta made for each other. Always together. Perpetually cool in a geeky way.

That was about 10 years ago. They just recently broke up.

She is a geek and a very quiet solitary geek. She focused her life around her man. So when he decided to split ways (apparently it was amicable - they just sorta grew apart), she found herself alone with very few friends, cause her man was really all she needed.

So she contacted a mutual friend of ours, who currently has a crazy busy life social engineering union reps (ha!), and he asked me if I wanted to spend some time with her as she is kinda lonely.

So she is pretty cute if I remember. Not "the woman of my dreams" cute, but cute enough. She is smart, well spoken, but very quiet...for some reason apparently I was one of the few people at the cafe that she used to talk to (I never noticed she only spoke to a select few of us....it was just really brought to my attention this week), and she is weird in a dark way, which I have to admit I kind of like.

So I have a tendency to race ahead in my mind and predict what will happen in the future. My therapist called it "fortune telling". It is a really fucking stupid thing to do since I tend to focus on the negatives that could happen and gloss over the positives. It's a habit I am trying to break.
It's one of the reasons I am writing this blog. I honestly feel better after writing an entry. It sorta feels like confession, only without the priest and the buggery (just kidding! Don't strike me down!...bah it was a cheap shot anyway so I'm the one who looks like a dufus).

So anyway, I barely know this woman, who I will dub F1, but it looks like I will be getting together with her next week sometime. It seems promising. The only thing that worries me is that she seems to be very isolationist and focuses on the one person in her life, and I am coming from the complete opposite direction where I am used to having several people in my life and essentially all the freedom in the world.

But really, that's my only real concern. She is pretty cool. Pretty cute. Pretty geeky. I think it looks promising.

Look at that! Some random event seemed to land in my favor. Kickass!