Women are Crazy

Ya..we are all crazy. Anyone past the age of 12 is crazy, or has some sort of baggage.

But when you start dating women in the 33-40 age range, it seems that most of them expect to get married and have children within the first year of the relationship.

Say what?

In the last year I have had 3 different women who have either asked me to impregnate them (I thought about it, but I could not have a child in this world and just ignore it - and though i liked these women I could not see myself spending my life with them), or basically end any chance of a relationship with me when they found out I would have to spend some time in a relationship with my partner, developing love and trust, before I would agree to marriage or having a baby.

Really? REALLY? You expect me to get married and have a child with you just because your biological clock is tick-tick-ticking? Are you fucking crazy? Are there really men out there that are so desperate that they will have a child with someone they barely know? Ya, I know there are.

The most recent we shall call ehrm1. We were getting along well. She said she wanted honesty. She brought up marriage (as in "have you ever been married"), we got on the subject and I mentioned I would need to take my time and really get to know the person before I could get married and have kids. Still waiting for a reply. I should lie just to get laid, but it's not in me. Too fucking honest for my own good.

Maybe I just have an overblown sense of responsibility and I couldn't see myself having a spawn and having it NOT be a part of my life.

I realize that at 41 years of age, my odds of finding love, getting married and having a child are slim. I guess there is a small amount of panic in me about that. "Did I miss out on something?" "Did I live my life right?".

Sitting at home alone in my bathrobe right now. I wish I had someone I cared about with me. I don't. I am still looking.

But I'll be damned if I am gonna have a kid just because I am 41. How irresponsible is that? It's not like the past where we needed to procreate to keep our species/nation strong. The world has too many people as it is.

Where is the one for me? Where is the woman that wants a life of joy and wonder, of travel and adventure. White picket fence? 2.3 kids? Never been for me.

But I would like a partner.

Where are you?